Hi my blog, I am here to post something again...

A few weeks ago...

I worked throughout the 3 weeks of holiday i had, didnt even rest well...i just work and worked. Work until so tired, everyday.

I rather work everyday to keep myself busy, becoz i realised when i really busy, i got no extra time to think a lot...

I din have enough time to sleep, din even have time to do my homework...

Nowadays, i really take things in easy stride...becoz i already did all i could, already put in all my efforts, but things still remained unchanged...

I am so so tired...So tired of taking the initiative always...

Sometimes, i even feel the stress and then tears just flow down. I asked myself why the hell am i so persistance...so fucking silly...

Why cant i put this persistance onto other more meaningful and useful things...

I just let myself down so much...I am so angry with myself...

You are no longer the one that i love...

Becoz i still remembered it so clearly, the guy that i used to love isnt like this...

Maybe this persistance just cant stop is becoz, till now, i am still hoping there will be change in you or whatever...

Our r/s is like a routine. Not anything else...

I find it very funny...at the same time also pathetic...

The r/s i put in so much efforts, so much time, so much sacrifices, so much so much... It wasnt easy to get a 'green light' from my parents after 2 years tgt, now that it turned out like this...

Can you just let the past you to come back to me... please?