You never know how deeply i was hurt by you, this time...

You left me alone to face all the pain and misery...

All sleepless nights, with tears and keeping on asking myself questions i can never get out of it...

I think about how im gonna lead my life without you when you can lead life to the fullest everyday...

I look at our pictures everyday, thinking how good it would be if we could go back to the past...

But you look forward to the future...

So what's left for me now?

What am i going to do now?

Everyday my mind is wandering~ im really losing my mind...

Our rs jus ended like this...

I cried every night...I can even cry in school when others mention anything that can make me think of you...

I really feel like dying, the pain and misery is killing me, very much...

Thats how much i really love you...

I hate to open my eyes now, but i also cant close my eyes at night...

Do you know? You wont, you dont and u also dun wish to.

SO badly h.u.r.t. )':

I didnt know that even the memories we had tgt, were so weak, becoz they couldnt help me to keep you or drag you back...

I didnt know everything were so fragile...

I just realised i didnt know so much things and i just couldnt accept facts...

Even now, im crying as i post this entry.

I tried to put up a brave front but im also a human with feelings...

I hate to let my friends to see the weaker side of myself, but i really cant control my own feelings when anyone just mention anything...

Everyday im troubled.

SO troubled...

So sadded.

You left me when i needed u the most, right now.

It is really o.v.e.r.